Recently I’ve been asking myself what faith feels like…
What would have come to mind in the past are things like: hopeful, confident, optimistic, excited, and invulnerable. I’ve realized that’s not how faith usually feels… not for me anyways. More often it feels like doubt, fear, confusion, sadness, exhaustion, and maybe even despair.
Faith is how I choose to respond.
Faith is continuing to pray for help in dating after years of prayers and few prospects. Faith is avoiding temporal happiness when my body yearns for instant gratification. It’s trying to improve when failures seem so prevalent. It’s doing yoga although I’m self-conscious about my body. It’s writing this blog post while struggling to express my thoughts.
In these examples, I don’t feel what you might call faithful. But I choose to act faithfully.
My recent HWN is learning how faith feels :)